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You can feel her hope of being seen and heard. Arabella goes to the police, who are thankfully supportive and earnest, to file a report. She finds Uber receipts, ATM withdrawals and tries to find evidence of what happened. Simon, because of his own indiscretions and questionable choices, is cagey and unhelpful, first lying and then evading. Terrified and confused, Arabella tries to piece together what happened, but the memories only come in jagged shards that won’t fit together. I kept thinking if she could just get out she would be safe, which isn’t true of course. This moment-watching her struggle to open the door-it’s small, it’s momentary, and it’s gutting. I don’t blame them, but I ache for Arabella and all of us that their first response was to ignore her entirely. Any one of them could have changed the course of her night if they had shifted their perspective from thinking she’s just messy to wondering if she’s okay.

The way she stumbles, clearly clinging to consciousness and people either ignore her, look amused, or look annoyed. Watching this scene made me feel nauseated. We see her stumbling out of the bar-knocking into people who look at her askance, pulling on the door handles while bent double and swaying-and then the scene cuts to early the next morning when she sits at her computer again, having no memory of anything, a small gash on her forehead oozing blood. It’s at the bar that her drink is spiked and she loses the rest of her night. But the lure of procrastination is too great, so, after promising herself she’ll only stop for an hour, she heads to the Ego Death bar to meet her friend Simon (Aml Ameen) and his cousin (Ansu Kabia). Once home, she promises her agents, herself, and her best friends Terry (Weruche Opia) and Kwame (Paapa Essiedu) that she will pull an all-nighter in the office to complete the draft by the next morning. The guy who kisses you tenderly, takes tender care of you when you’re sick, but only shrugs when you ask when you’ll talk again and squirms when you try to define anything. He’s like the encapsulation of the guy who won’t give you any straight answers. Biagio is in black, leaning against the wall. Arabella waiting for her ride to the airport. We meet her as she’s heading back to London after a visit with him, which was underwritten by her literary agents, where he won’t commit to when or if they’ll talk again. To avoid the reality of her looming deadline, she keeps taking off for Italy to see Biagio (Marouane Zotti), her drug-dealing, extremely non-committal sex partner.

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Arabella is somewhat lost about to how to consciously create an entire book. While the first one emerged naturally from her Twitter musings and was published as a PDF, the second one comes with the pressure of agents, a publishing house, monetary advances, and so many expectations. Now that I’ve finished watching the entire series, which confronts sexual assault and consent from a seemingly prismatic number of angles, I want to begin at the beginning again and watch it from this side, knowing where it all ends up.Īfter the success of her first book, Chronicles of a Fed-Up Millennial, Arabella (Micaela Coel, who is also the creator, sole writer, and director of the movie) is struggling to complete a draft of her second manuscript. But then, after a break, I was always ready to return to it. No, with this show-which is beautiful and painful, funny and gut-wrenching, always brutally honest, and masterfully made-I could only take small bites-an episode, half an episode-before I couldn’t take in any more. But, I couldn’t do that with I May Destroy You. Finding a show you love and letting it consume you as you consume it is deeply satisfying. Or, as I like to call it, immersive watching-like forest bathing, but not at all. Those who have read my reviews know that I’m a strong believer in the binge-watch.

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The series has several depictions of and many discussions about drugs, sexual assault, and rape. Content Warning: The series and this review discuss sexual assault, rape, and consent.

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